Earlier this week I read a very poignant article on the BBC website about how difficult is is for some of us to enjoy the Christmas and New Year festivities and how one woman –  a mother – had to fake her enjoyment for the sake of her children!

The article resonated with me very deeply because the feelings of hurt and disappointment and fear cannot be somehow put into a box until January 2nd, and yet despite all that, many of us do try to fake it for the sake of others often at great personal cost.

Also last week, I regrettably let the full force of my anger and despair be directed to my brother who after many weeks actually noticed my pain and offered to help – too late and I let go a torrent of anger at him – better I think to have faked it!

My next blog will be: Choice

William Defoe